daily i'm constrained to be

Good for My Soul

Today was filled w so many of my favorite things.  It kinda felt like a one day vacation….at a resort.

- My House Church peoples

- Burgers on the Grill

- Snacking and Eating and Eating and Snacking ALL DAY LONG

- Two resort like houses

- Going out on a boat (minus the rain)

- Almost going tubing (darn you rain)

- More Eating

- Chocolate fountain / Fondue

- Swimming in a non-chlorine pool 

- Watching Tennis the French Open

- Snuggling up to watch a Movie to end the night 

- Coming home to a quite house to be w Creator King

AMEN

For the Record.

I’m so GLAD Christ Loves Me.

I’m not quite sure how He would have seen it a good trade off. My life for His.  But I am so glad He did.

Once again, I’m so Grateful for my family.  I feel the most at ease when I am around them. Although they do individually at times drive me nuts.

I am growing to love my HC family more and more.

My friend’s Tiffany & Troy are moving to Portland.  This is very bittersweet.

This acceptance of change is becoming more and more ok w me.  Once I find something I like or people I like I don’t want things to change.  But things can stay the same forever….that would indeed bore me.

Sometimes it still hurts a little that I was dropped from the GMS family. Parker got married this weekend.  Not that I could have gone, but I wasn’t invited.

Things are moving along w this work{shop}.  This thrills me.

Went to a super newbie counselor this weekend.  pretty much for free - $10 - and it was not that great.  Probably won’t go back.  I don’t know what I want out of counseling.  Life is pretty great right now.  I just want money and a husband.  Counseling can give me neither.

Actually thinking about a tattoo.  I just love this idea of redemption.  I am so glad it was offered to me and may be something that I want to be reminded of forever.

Hung out w Whit’s class this week. I give her major credit. Things like this are changing the world, but not without taking a toll on her.

I’m not sure why I am having doubts about going to Haiti? Hmmm….not sure what that is about.

My Intern told me on Sat that she is living w her girlfriend. Didn’t catch that originally.  I did catch myself almost being jealous of her bc of her blatant beauty.  I would think guys would fall over her.  I guess she don’t swing that way….which is so confusing to me.  I hope I can be Christ to her.

I miss traveling something fierce.  I had a tough tuesday bc of it.

I CAN NOT wait for a day w my HC on the boat tomorrow for Memorial Day.  So grateful for the Freedom in this nation. Never to be taken for granted.

Prayers

Today Jessica Bott and three gentlemen in their 40s and 50s came to pray over me & my business today.  It was quite encouraging.

- It was great to share the vision of OPP, et al. to these business men and have them get it.

- It is Ministry as business.  And a way to engage w Orlando and people that I wouldn’t have access to otherwise.

- I do ask for provision.  And am encouraged that God works in his own perfect timing.  One gentlemen mentioned that I should hold on and blessings are on their way.

- I do want to be more generous and I know that is not always my heart motive.

- One of them prayed over me as my Father’s daughter.  I am glad to be reminded of that.

- It was also prayed over me the story of Daniel, that when prayed, his prayer was answered immediately but it took 21 days for the answer to arrive.  So may be the case here.  Things are coming, but they aren’t here yet. 

- I was glad to be reminded that God can do all that HE wants. I believe it is so.

- I PRAY for open doors w this work[shop] space.  Jessica said she saw a space that was like a warehouse w lots of window and light shining through.  That gave me a lot of HOPE.

YAHWEH. You are incredibly faithful.  I hope to remain in your hands. I need to be reminded that you hold the whole world, in your hands and you will never leave us. I believe it is so.

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1. Christ is SO faithful. I had a client reschedule for next month.  Which would have me not have enough for rent.  I promised that I wasn’t going to be anxious about it.  That was harder than it seems.  But I felt I fought it w valiant effort.  A day later someone texted me out of the blue and wanted a consult.  I booked her the NEXT TIME. In the same exact time slot as the girl who had to reschedule.  God, I thank you.

2. Conversation w Emma.  That made my week.  Just to see God breaking her down is wonderful.  I know that YOU have so much in store for her.  I ask that you continue to pry into her life and heart.  I want to see her healthy, happy and whole.

3. Community.  I am ever grateful for the people in my life.  There are too many to count.  That is such a good thing.  My house church, Status at large, random friends, and family (who are probably my best friends.)

4. I hope that fear does not cripple me from enjoying the present moment.  

5. I pray dearly that God provides a car for me.

It feels Good to feel Good…for a little while. Things have been ok.  Piecing together how I will pay for this month’s rent.  It’s kinda coming together.

Moving forward w this space is scary and exciting.  It’s so much bigger than I can put together. So much to think about and so many things that will have to happen.  I am REALLY wanting this to happen.  I just see so much of it in my mind.  I can’t wait for all the God things that will come of it.  It just makes my heart sing to see people doing what they are born to do.

Looking for a part time job.  I mean looking but not really looking.